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My girlfriend/fiancé of the last four years once again broke up with me. And for good this time. She is coming today to pick up her things.
Our lease is up on the 30th at this apartment, and since we are not together anymore I cannot move in with her at the new place. So up until yesterday I thought I would be homeless with my 3 animals.
Fortunately, my grandmother is willing to let us all come stay with her until I am able to save up enough to get my own place.
I am so grateful to her for taking me in.
I am heartbroken and I feel like my world is collapsing.
Anyone with an eating disorder can relate to the fact that stress and emotional pain tends to give the eating disorder thoughts a lot of power and room to be nasty.
And my disorder has been trying to drag me down further and further since this happened,
"I’m not good enough for anybody. Nobody will ever want me. My family is so annoyed that they have to help me right now. I am shit and that’s why everyone chooses their addictions over me. I don’t even deserve to be happy or to eat today."
These are just a few of the thoughts that have been going through my mind.
Even if I don’t believe it right now, I know that I am strong and I need to take care of myself right now. I deserve to being a loving and caring relationship, not one where I am controlled and lied to.
I respect myself enough to try and find away to move forward with my life.
As much as I know this to be true, I still fucking hurt right now.
Four fucking years of my life put into a relationship that is over. We went through a lot of shit together, but she is not in love with me anymore.
So I guess that is that. Where do I go from here now?
And right now, there is nothing I can do about it.
The Five Stages of Studying: As Inspired by cats
2) Anger towards your professor for assigning you so much work
3) Get Drunk. And Sassy. Ignore everything you have to do. Ain’t nobody got time for that
4) Wake up the next morning. Realize that you should have been studying and now you’re essentially screwed
5) Mental Breakdown