The frustration of looking in the mirror and not knowing what I actually look like because of body dysmorphia
Getting passionate when others with EDs/SH don’t think they’re strong enough to fight
I practiced healthy self talk with a few of my meals today/snacks. It’s just little things like fact checking and reminding myself “it’s just food” and ‘this fits in my meal plan…” And believe it or not, it helped! As stupid as it sounds, hearing myself say these things out loud makes them seem more real and gets me out of my head. Small changes can add up, and so far, it’s been helpful. Gotta keep it up.
Great work! I find this helpful, too.
Mind: Recovery? A stupid waste of time.
Me: It’s not a waste.
Mind: You’ve been to treatment three times and keep relapsing. You’re a chronic case.
Me: Nobody is beyond help. I can recover.
Mind: But just look at yourself? Fuck recovery and be skinny again.
Me: ….. Well, maybe.
FUCK MY MIND FOR TRIPPING ME UP AND MAKING ME QUESTION MYSELF IN RECOVERY.
This is my dog, Harry. He keeps me strong.
During recovery, eating around people you’re comfortable with:
During recovery, eating around people who make dumbass comments:
On the Outside
On the Inside